I was having a massive doubts about ending my relationship with my ex. The attraction, the way we could lapse so easily into conversation and I could not help but note all the effort he had made over making his house cleaner, more inviting to me a womanly mortal. And then.
And then things changed in one night.
I got invited out for dinner with his parents. His dad to me as an outsider came across as a really sweet man. Non the less he was a man who had to cope with the drunken, emotional outbursts of his 60 year old wife. I was an audience to her as well. I felt out of my depth and uncomfortable. On one level I could see his mother had got pissed as a defence mechanism against her shyness or as a way of masking her lack of confidence or insecurities. The reality was she was and is, most of the times I have met her a drunk. On one ocassion she has damaged my property, another time hurt herself by giving herself a black eye after falling down my stairs. Each time when she has been drunk what did start as a pleasant night ends up a nightmare as she becomes emotional and argumentative.
If I stayed with my ex every family party would be the same. I don’t want to be an audience to that.
I don’t want it for my children either.
It is over.

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